Once again i get the horrible man out of the bundle of lames in this world, im heart broken sad and depressed from what just happen to me. Of course you guys might not know that me and tra broke up because i didn't put it out there but i know he probably did. I gave this boy everything, my trust, my respect, and my heart... and all he did was DEMOLISH and didn't even leave it with a single piece for it to be put back together. I wonder constantly why do you gusy promise us a life time, promise us love and peace , and a sweet future to come along with it all. Im going crazy, this boy has done me wrong, from lying me to my face, turning aroudn trying to talk to a girl right after he walked away from me, kissing another girl and even crushing on them... but i still stayed with him by his fucking side, by his motha fucking side and what do i get in return.. a control freak, a insecure and jealous control freak. I broke up with tra because i had to have some more damn respect from my self then to have any man have me crying because he wants to control my ever single move. Tra claims he was my 100% R.O.D. made all these promises that he would be there through the fucking THICK and THIN through every situation. =/ ITS ALL B.S. Don't BELIEVE A DAMN thing he says because he goes right behind your back and BACK STABBS you.. So what i have gay friends, so what i like to hang with them! MAN get the fuck away from me if your going to try and take away my friends. A girl like me loves her friends and her family and when you try and take them away its going to have to go down with a FIGHT! Im so tired and fed up with things i don't know what to do, he keeps playing these emotional games. Where everything has to be on his time or its no time. and that is exactly his attidude, don't get me wrong he is a great friend but not the one you wanna settle down with and call him your homie for life... I just can't believe how he goes and bails out on me because i wanna keep my GAY FRIENDS all because a bitch wanna accuse me of some FALSE shit .. because she gets pleasure out of trying to ruin everybodies FUCKING relationship. I stayed by this boys side THROUGH ALL THE SHIT HE PUT ME THROUGH, and he wants to just take control because of his fear of me becoming gay.. SHIT you might as well not date me at all damnit because your not going to treat me like a fucking slave. What kind of person claim they love somebody but wants to FUCKING CONTROL them. I understand i get fiesty to but i dont nagg like he do... untill he do it.. NOw that hese in college he watns to go around like hes so Explict excusite hawt and dandy liek hes the fly guy and ladies need to hop on his Dixx. Things arent hte same no more, ever since college he wanna do this and that.. and if you haven't notice by now he wants to make everything go his way. Like he don't want me partying because of the way i dance, but i have only been to 3 formal parties with family and fine dining and one lil house party but i only danced with my homeboy and it was on a fxing G rated level.
I don't know what to do with my life... because it SUCKS.
I hate when this boy tells me all these promises but wants to fall back when it comes to actually taking the responsiblity of doing those damn PROMISES always wanna make promises about his own feelings but never wants to make the ones for me... then wants to pull out the guilt shit when he notices i dont like it..
Uh im confused fustrated mad sad dissapointed angry PISSED tired lazy .
i gave it all up to this kidd and but i can say i left with some experiences that changed my life forever... Rather i turn gay or not because i dont know if i can EEEEEEEEEEEEVER trust another man with my mutha FUCKING heart if hes going to give me 99.9 percent but not the 100 percent that was promise and that .1 percent could change you for a life time you just don't know.
Shout out to all the gay people in the world, i know what you guys do is wrong but you doi t because its what makes you happy and what makes you feel loved. I thought i felt loved with a man but he made me feel like a piece of shit when i needed him the fucking most out of everything.
Good night PEOPLE.
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